Fifteen days ago I weighed in at 234 pounds and I was super depressed. My weight kept going up and down and my knees hurt so bad I had to hold onto the railings of the stairs to get down just one flight, wincing the whole way. I decided the weight had to come off, especially since using medication for my joints had such a bad effect on me. No more excuses to eat badly or not work out. It was time to be serious.
You have to do the work to see results. I have no idea where I read or heard that, but it has become my mantra when I don’t want to get up in the mornings to work out. That and my other mantra, “If it doesn’t challenge you, it won’t change you”, spoken by my trainer crush Justin from the True Beginner program. So I’m happy to report that I’ve lost 8 pounds since the gloomy day fifteen days ago. How did I do it? What diet did I use? There’s no secret really. My trainer and nutritionist embedded it in my brain a decade ago but I decided not to listen. Proper diet and exercise. It’s that simple. Uh well it’s not simple. It’s freaking hard.
On the exercise front I’ve been doing the True Beginner program from Dailyburn.com every day that there’s a work out scheduled for me. No exceptions. I log on and click play. Three days into it my body rebelled and I got sick with horrible congestion, but this time I pushed forward. Each set of two weeks of videos gets harder to ease you into getting back into shape. I’m in the second set of videos and wow, it’s hard. Each video is 30 minutes, including a core video. Justin is so motivational and he always tells you to acknowledge how strong you are for showing up. I truly have a trainer crush.
On the nutritional side I’ve gone back to the basics that my nutritionist set up for me years ago. She sat down with me and my husband, asked us what our favorite foods were and what our lifestyle was like and custom made a menu plan for each of us. Mine is a 1500 calorie plan in this configuration: 300 calories breakfast, 200 calories snack, 300 calories lunch, 200 calories afternoon snack, 400 calorie dinner and a 100 calories evening snack which I can combine with dinner to make it 500 calories if necessary. I also have one meal a week where I can eat whatever I want.
I think the hardest part for me is getting up in the morning and starting the work out. Once I hit play I’m into it and glad I showed up.
It’s been a little while since I’ve posted. I wish the reason was positive, but I’ve been struggling really hard with my weight and it has me depressed. I know all posts can’t be motivating, and I can’t always be inspirational, even though I try to do that for all around me.
Some weekends it feels like my brain is trying to convince me that I need to celebrate, like I’m on a vacation, and most times I give in. I will spend the week being mostly good with food, and I’ve been doing the True Beginner workouts on Dailyburn.com and LOVE them. It’s when the weekend comes that I lose it, and undo all the work I’ve done. So for instance I weighed in on Friday’s and I was 229, but then Sunday evening I checked and I was 334! That was it. I was so depressed and sad.
Determined to lose this weight I’m trying to be more serious about this. My one knee has been hurting me for a long while now, so I tried to use an all natural glucosamine herbal blend, but after four days I had to stop. My body felt like I had been beaten all over and after several days of laying low it didn’t get better. My heart was racing too. I’m finally starting to feel better after five days of not taking it, but that didn’t help my frame of mind.
Sometimes I wonder, just what was it that turned the tides for so many people who went from overweight to healthy? I’ve been on a search to find some stories. Will this knee problem of mine be my turning point? I’m so fed up with all of this losing and gaining and giving in to the numerous temptations all around me.
I always try to turn negative thoughts into something positive when I can, and with that, there was one thing that I heard recently that I’ve decided to make my mantra, in hopes of breathing some inspiration back into me. It was from the Daily Burn site during the True Beginners class. Justin, the trainer will often say, ” If it doesn’t challenge you, it won’t change you.”
I have such a trainer crush on him. He’s so motivational!